I'm alive

I'm alive like I breath air and eat food

I'm alive like I drink water
And hate coke cause it tastes fake like something a zombie would drink
And I hate zombies, cause they try to eat your soul, but I won't get eaten because

I'm alive like I was always told I couldn't sing so I take showers just to have a place to belt it out and sometimes I forget to even wash myself, but you know what I smell as good as ever

I'm alive like I still think dinosaurs are cool,
and when I drink water I think about how my 8th grade science teacher taught me that the water I'm drinking is the same water a dinosaur drank before it died and the same water that eroded it into dust or, a fossil. It's the same water that achilles, or gandhi drank before it eroded them into dust or heroes. The same water my zeda drank before it eroded him into dust or a patriarch. The same water that will turn me into dust and you into dust and make dust of all of us, so the question confronts us why fuss with the poetry and shit if it only lasts the second of air vibration before it slips away and I'm only a blink of the universe before my day is up and I'm dust

But fuck that,
I do it because I like it and because
I'm alive
like I like running naked in the rain
And I'm alive like I actually GO running naked in the rain and don't just talk about it in poems and you can consider this an open invitation to join me the next time god starts to cry tears of joy, nudity not optional, we'll party like the serpent hasn't come yet

I'm alive like I can combine 29 lines at a time rhyme light speed no sign posting for my kind audience sitting wide eyed now eyeballs go dry until blinding sets in but I pay no mind because you don't pay me so it's all the same and poetry is free, but not free of pain and it doesn't matter anyways
Because you're all still picturing me naked in the rain
But that's fine cause
I'm alive
like I still yell and cry and throw things and obstinately argue and roll around in the grass and mud, naked when it's raining, and get lost wandering and ask too many questions, and play with puppies and have messy handwriting and call how I feel about girls "a crush"
I E
I'm alive like a child
And no child dreams of growing up to stare excel spreadsheets because that's obnoxious
and excel is all boxes
and fuck boxes
I'm alive like I can say platitudes knowing you're all judging me but I feel that I must say them anyways because one day you'll all just be dust and right now
I'm alive like these zombies want me to think their colored paper will bring me fulfillment but I'm alive so I know it won't. A pen and paper are five bucks, friends are free ad the sun shines on everyone, so why would I need to be a millionaire?
These zombies fit nicely in their J Crew boat, shoes and Suits and think I dress funny but I'm alive I strut my style like prince Harry was also rocking hand me downs, thrift store gems and t - shirts won at track meets
I'm alive like I'm still dazzled by Emerson, Borges Thoreau and Fenimore and I'll have plenty more adventures before I stop climbing sycamores and start riding elevators
These zombies want me to think that in 3 years its 100k or bust,
and if it were, I'm alive, so I'd choose bust, like bust a move or bust a rhyme like busta rhymes or bust a nut in a zombies face and feel great

But to be honest these zombies are pretty smart
Look at Clinton Gates and Buffet, Money is power and power is money and the flowers dried up in the 70s

I won't listen
Pocket change won't change the world

I won't listen
You're a hipster and you're going to be homeless

I won't listen
Go to law school, go to med school work on wall street

I won't listen I won't listen I'm trying not to listen to anything but me but my heartbeat to remind myself that

I'm alive like I only drink Minnesota lake water, I only breath Colorado Mountain Air and to be honest I love chicken tenders

I'm alive like I can feel your heartbeat

I'm alive like I like to smile at strangers on the street and sometimes people will say do I know you? And I'll say, well you do now, my name's Jacob
and I'm alive